picrel. i feel so messed up after reading it, it's too relatable. i'm not an incel, i dont want to have sex with girls. but, the thought of being masculine towards a girl is upsetting. seeing a pretty girl confuses me, i want to hold them but my brain cant go any further.i can imagine dating guys but only romantically and i think 90% are unattractive
i've always had fetishes, that grew into being agp with a desire to be soft that fades in and out. im detached from most men and being around them can be upsetting. i feel empty most days
i don't understand what's wrong with me any more.
am i ace? agp? dysphoric? just mentally ill? slightly gay? does __anyone__ relate, at all?