I'm dating the girl of my dreams, were both 21, I'm a cis male and she's a mtf woman. We started dating 7 months ago and I'm absolutely obsessed with her. She was an old friend of a friend before she transitioned, I met her again last year and fell hopelessly for her. She's perfect in basically every way, checks every box, and for the most part, I love our life. I'm so in love with her I hope to marry her a few years down the road, I know she's the one for me. Both of our lives have improved so much as a result of eachother and I wouldn't dream of being with anyone else, I don't think I could live without her.There is one and only one downside. We're functionally sexually incompatible. Before her I was a total virgin as a result of being super autistic, she's very experienced and said she'll help me learn, wasn't a problem for me at first because I wasn't a very horny person then. When we first had sex we had difficulties because unbeknownst to me my dick is very thick and is cruved up like a banana, and with her being so tight it makes taking me hard. We found ways to work around this, but it requires so much preparation which she hates doing and the ammount of pain I give her psychs me out of being horny often. When we do have sex though it's incredible and these days I want her so bad. Lately we've barely had sex at all though, I haven't cum in weeks and it's starting to get to me. When she's on her meds she doesn't get horny anymore and when she isn't she's too depressed to do anything. The worst part is she teases me constantly, getting me horny and then stopping, I used to love it but now that it never goes anywhere it feels like pouring salt into my wounds. I can't even express this to her without feeling pathetic and I don't want to make her feel pressured.
I absolutely need her, and would never dream of being with anyone else, but this is killing me. Every night she plays with me and then just goes to sleep, and it's breaking my brain. What do I do?