Some people here joke I am a cis mtf but I spent my teenage years wishing I looked like a proper girl. I dont think I ever had or have proper dysphoria because it is more of grass is greener but I completely get how it is to want to be smaller and more feminine. I have a 97.5cm aka 38+'' ribcage at 168cm aka 5'6'' height. I wanted to be like the cute girls who can wear cute clothes but all I got was my W I D E skeleton.I also relate to pussy envy as my genitals were completely fucked from birth to a point of constant crippling pain which limited ability to walk. Sitting was torment too.
I think this may be why I have such a strong kinship for mtfs and want to help. I may not experience what you do but I kinda get it. I like using my fashion and makeup video consumption experience to help. :3