straight guy here, i was really upset that my best friend that i've known and been inseparable with since the 4th grade is going to uni in another state this fall and i was telling my gf about it and i was crying and then after i said it feels even worse than any breakup i've ever been through she got mad and called me gay and i was like no, he's my best friend of course i thought we would be close forever and it feels like a part of myself is being ripped away, of course i feel stronger about him than my other friends. but anyway after that i started obsessing over whether i may be gay or not and i don't think i am, and i've been agonizing over it all day.anyway, how do people even know who their best friend is if not for the special feelings they have that set them apart from the rest? it doesn't make sense to me and i don't know if that means i'm gay or not