>be me>start transition because fluctuating dysphoria has been kicking my ass for most of my life and vaguely agp thoughts
>8 months into hrt i somehow get into yaoi and resurge my love for kpop bgs when i was younger
>make online fujoshi friends who are really kind and accepting
>slowly drift away from talking to most trans women i knew before
>now instead of crying tears of happiness when someone calls me she i feel apathetic (maybe because my hugboxxing has basically stopped altogether lol)
>on sm maintain a pseudofudanshi persona that publicly goes by he/him
what the fuck happened dude
also for reference as a kid i definitely liked men to some extent it but for some reason i went from being some kind of pseudobisexual gaymasc/theyfab to autistic rapehon moid almost back and forth throughout my teen years like i felt like i had to pick one otherwise it felt weird idk ignore this part actually
pic notrel he's my nct bias >,>