Ya know when you ask yourself a question that if what you wanna do is a good idea or not? I didn't get enough of those experiences in life. I'm 18(and a repper) and very suicidal. I asked myself over a year ago if I wanted to be a girl and that broke me for some reason.Do note that I have an underdeveloped personality and always have been extremely paranoid of making choices for myself based on my appearance because I'm a sensitive little retard. and I've never been more afraid of anything other than being used as an example of what you shouldn't do with yourself. Not to mention I crumble easily from criticism and being told things like, that I need to "man up" or something
That was a bit complex but to shorten it I'll use an example
>Be me
>(Let's say I wanna be emo or something)
>See people being bullied for how they dress and are considered degens.
I've always been a bit body dysmorphic. I don't know why but I prefer to wear a hoodie whenever possible when going to public places. Probably because family made fun of me for being skinny but whatever.
I basically look like a doomer when I go out. Zip up hoodie(jacket?) basic sweat pants, and a beanie (I usually wear it when my hair is greasy)
And that's all I am. That's all I look like to others. A background character...teachers legitimately looked like they felt bad for me when they offered help on something.