Why do I always dream about being in girlmode and accepted when reality is different

I'm almost always a girl moder in my dreams and dream about reality stuff but I don't understand why everyone seems chill with me being a tranny


I've dreamt of receiving text from my brothers and how they support me

I've dreamt of me just being around every one being able to laugh and have a good time while dressing as myself

I've even had dreams where I'm taking care of my soon to be born nephew as his auntie instead of uncle

But the reality is different my mom has spouted turf rhetoric at me and told me she's never seen me as a woman

My dad acts like nothing's changed about me

My brothers walk egg shells around me

I feel like I don't belong anymore and need to go away or something even though I desperately desire having the connection I have in my dreams with them