my older brother is>185cm, large masculine frame
>outgoing, many friends
>has a good job after studying at a good university in a good program
>consistently works out
>serial womanizer (like our father)
and i am
>167cm, relatively feminine frame
>social anxiety, barely any friends
>massive tranny faggot
>wagie cause no focus in school and also retarded
>eating disorder
>beta virgin
i've always been compared with him by everyone growing up and was never able to meet those expectations or criticisms and i think genuinely i developed a complex over it that has pushed me into transitioning. how am i meant to cope with this? like genuinely i lost the genetic lottery so fucking hard while he won it and we're from the same parents its just fucking pathetic