>plan a trip to a tcg store to buy cards with some friends>shower
>put on cute dress
>apply makeup
>see myself in the mirror
>immediately scrub off all the makeup
>change into my masculine clothing
>walk around with a hat to hide my sore red eyes
>see adorable women and afabs wearing the same outfits I wish I did
>even queer looking afabs look more feminine
>cry internally the whole time
every
f*nking
time
when will I finally leave my manmoding phase WHEN