What's sad is it isn't even like no one likes me. There's a girl who's very pretty and we fuck every now and then, but she's got incredibly bad genetics (so kids out of the question) and is probably bpd and will fuck my life up if I let her too close. There's a super funny girl I like a lot and we've fooled around a bit but I'm just not that attracted to her and she has latent issues which would, again, probably fuck my life up if I let her too close. There's a girl I dated for years and we love each other very much platonically but it would never work.Apps are essentially wastelands. I found the greatest woman I've known so far on one, but she was one out of thousands. Internet spaces are filled with the most despicable creatures known to man. Real life spaces are mostly just spots for couples and men. Sure, I want to spend an hour getting awkwardly flirted with by dudes who I have to awkwardly tell I like women.
And no, I don't mean a barren t4t transbian relationship. I don't even care if that makes me a 'straight male'. I just want to settle down and have kids with a decent, semi-normal woman. I get that I'm not exactly close to normal myself, but hell, I can provide for a wife and kids. Isn't that enough any more?
Maybe I should put up a 'gf bounty'. $5000 on our first anniversary to the person who introduces me to my next gf. Something like that. Fuck, man.