i will never pass i will never be a real woman im going to kill myself

i hate everything about me i have that i look and sound like a man i hate that im attracted to women, i will never be able to sing beautifully, i really want to end it. i feel like its alredy too late i started my male puberty at fucking 12 and had a beard by 13 why did i have to be born in to this horrible prison of a body