I want to rot. i want to fade away. i am so useless now that she no longer wants me.I am 31 and started hormones at 29. i hate my body though my breast are barely b’s. i have a graduate degree in physics but now my highest goal in life is just to be worth some dom’s attention. cause i am stoned 24/7
I wish some femme saw my potential.
I can lose weight, i don’t drink and can give up drugs. i don’t mind being tied up or being touched in any way.
i just want to be pushed further and further and punished harshly when i fail. otherwise i will be lazy and get fat like i am in the process of doing it.
I don’t want to purge again i just want to eat less or do more to deserve it.
i would give in completely to any commands. i just want to prove i am not more trouble then i am worth. i just want to be a good girl worth cuddling with.