I was a retarded 16 year old in 2020. no history of childhood gender dysphoria, nonconformism or anything else. Never once jacked off to tranny porn or crossdressed either. yet for some reason in spite of all of that I found tranny meme subreddits and decided I was a tranny because of it. I realized this was retarded a year later and stopped ID’ing as a tranny and wanted to leave it there. Trouble is, I started getting these random fucking flashes where I would ‘feel like a girl’ for a couple seconds and feel much better for it. I started browsing this board, and developed mild gender dysphoria. I started hating my body, my face and my facial hair. fast forward a few years and I’m on HRT now and feel much better for it. I just don’t understand how someone like me, without any history of childhood GD, crossdressing, homosexuality or anything else could end up like this. I now hate my masculine features and desperately want FFS, but I’m convinced that if I never went down this road I’d feel fine.