>25>mood swings are pretty bad, at least, i think they're still mood swings
>6 and a half months into transition
>boymoding all the time
>constantly deadnamed
>only friend is also my only relationship, a fwb who i get no enjoyment out of sex with, who I can actually do very little with, took my virginity in a really sad t4t way after being a virgin all my life
>No friends
>NEET with no future prospects
>can hardly feel like i can take care of myself while my world gets worse around me and i feel like i more and more missed out on everything, everything good or any opportunity i managed to fuck everything up and end up like this
there's no way a cis person could ever love me anyway, im going to kill myself because i feel so overwhelmed, so totally overwhelmed, i cry every single day and i woke up crying today. all i have is a drug addiction to cope with and everything sucks, i want to kill myself, i want to kill myself, i want to kill myself