I need to vent about something. I used to be a straight male who had sex with women, but I started taking estrogen a couple years ago. I always had dysphoria but it was after covid that my mind seemed to snap.I started just with pills and spiro. Then my doctor recommended I have my balls removed to speed up my transition. I signed the papers and they got taken away less than a year after starting HRT. Then I got switched to injections and progresterone suppositories. Then my dose of prog got doubled. I grew fairly big tits. I started talking in a girl voice and after a year I forgot my boy voice and it got stuck like that. Then I started pio and I grew more fat on my thighs, butt, waist, and breasts.
I have a boyfriend and my dicklet has shrank to half of its former size. It barely orgasms anymore, only twitches a bit when I cum, which is rare. it doesn't even get fully hard, it slaps uselessly against my tummy while I'm being penetrated.
My butt doesn't even resist anymore, it just quivers a little bit and I can usually take him with little or no lube. I take fiber every day and shave and nair my asshole almost every day. I'm hairless below the neck and I've lost so much strength that men can easily pin my arms back. My thighs, butt, and stomach have become soft and slightly pear shaped and I even have some cellulite on my ass now. I had my nipples pierced as a show of submission after my balls were removed.
how did I get broken this quickly? I feel frustrated and helpless. over the past four years I've had sex with only men. I've swallowed cum and taken loads in my butt. I've literally been turned into a whore by big pharma. I even sometimes cry in humiliation during sex as I feel myself being penetrated. I willingly let myself become emasculated and castrated and have the most humiliating sex acts performed on me over and over.