realised i'm (18 mtf) in love with my childhood best friend (older 18 mtf repper, will troon within a few months). basically a 0.1% chance she reciprocates but all i can think about is her laugh, kissing her, touching her etc. its driving me mad. do i just rope? is there any hope whatsoever? she's had brief flings with girls she met in like hmvs but nothing serious (she got played). i think i'd probably end up on the news if she cut all contact with me but i also don't think i can just let it linger, if i had to watch her marry someone else i think i'd just kill myself.
realised i'm (18 mtf) in love with my childhood best friend (older 18 mtf repper, will troon within a few months). basically a 0.1% chance she reciprocates but all i can think about is her laugh, kissing her, touching her etc. its driving me mad. do i just rope? is there any hope whatsoever? she's had brief flings with girls she met in like hmvs but nothing serious (she got played). i think i'd probably end up on the news if she cut all contact with me but i also don't think i can just let it linger, if i had to watch her marry someone else i think i'd just kill myself.