ever since I was a little kid I've desired to be seen as small, delicate, fragile, cute, etc. my life revolves around it. it motivates my entire personality, style, and behavior. I enjoy being playfully picked on, made fun of, pushed around by larger people. I developed anorexia and I love when people ask about my weight so I can proudly tell them how small I am. I love when they jokingly say they could carry me. I thank god I'm only 5'4, but I wish I was shorter. I have an anxiety disorder and feel a lot of guilt about wanting these things. you aren't supposed to want to be treated this way if you aren't small and cute, especially if you're male. I think my being trans is just an extension of this.anyone relate?