How to cope with never passing?

I'm 3 months HRT, my face is masculine and I won't be able to afford FFS for a long time
How do I cope with this? I genuinely don't think I will pass without FFS and I have no idea how to cope with it. Looking at myself in the mirror makes me neauseous.
>haha you're only 3 months in retard
Won't change the shape of my skull or other features, I was told it's over in an unsee here anyway.