I've spent 22 years on this earth with crippling body dysmorphia, but never once did I think changing my gender identity from male to female would help in this situation.For a while I used to identify with trans folk because I totally understood the feeling of depersonalization and detachment they would describe when talking about their own bodies, but I was always confused at their idea of a solution.
Kinda like it was a temporary fix for a long-term problem.
My dysmorphia stems from an outright rejection of my physical body as well as my thoughts and emotions-- no amount of changing anything will make me not who I am. Even if my body is completely altered, my brain is still the same and I hold all of the same experiences and memories that make me "me".
Used to think I was some form of queer person, but now I feel as though any sexuality I once experienced is just kind of gone and the idea of being in any sort of romantic relationship just doesn't make sense to me anymore.
People really do just be hunks of meat out here.