im planning to come out and get hrt soon but i dont feel anything, im not scared nor excited, i know im trans just because i wrote about my own life and went "yeah this person is def a tranny", nothing really feels reali have friends, i like them and i know they care about me too, and that they would be actually sad or disappointed if i just disappeared, but at the same time i dont feel anything about it, i love them but my emotions are just a big nothing
i find life beautiful with full of possibilities and wonderful things but i am so, so tired, if someone told me "youre going to die now" as long as it painless i would go "eh, ok i had enough, dont really care".
what is wrong with me? why tf am i broken like this? i never had anything bad happen in my life other than being born a tranny, logically speaking i should be happy but its just not working.