I don't really know where I'm at in regards to being trans>~5 months HRT
>still very masc; can't afford any laser, need to lose weight, don't shave my face since it's a good manmode smokescreen
>not even all that sure on gender identity, just wanna be feminine but I have low expectations
I don't wanna honmode because I feel like I already look retarded but at least I don't draw attention if I just wear a hoodie every day.
But I'm also pathetically lonely and want to date if possible.
This leads to more problems, because my dating requirements basically boil down to "someone that's fairly feminine, and shares some of my autistic interests" which means the bulk of people I'd ever be interested in ends up being trans women, but
>HSTS probably only want very securely masculine men
>transbians often just wanna date twinkhons/passoids/maybe femboys
>bi transwomen are somewhat rare here, or they all just use the T4T label
The last group would realistically be my best bet, but I can't imagine all that many people will see me and register I'm even on HRT, and just move along. Even if they do, that doesn't really mean my situation wouldn't be off putting to them.
Being mtf but not a twink at the start feels insane. I don't really know what to call myself or what my options even are. Do I fit in in MTF spaces? NB? Manmoders? Chasers? Do I just have to sit here and twiddle my thumbs, hoping shit starts to align and letting HRT do its thing and hope I start to pass or some shit? A partner who's already gone through this shit and can help me out would be perfect but realistically with that I could only hope for some tranner who's got a thing for pinkpilling but all of those types only seem interested in twinks and would probably prefer to start from scratch.
Any advice out there?